1st update...since a long time ago...

it has been a few month i din update my blog...i forgot my password..and now i get it back..hehe...tomorrow is my final exam result...who sill stay..and who will leave..nobody know that until tomorrow...hopefully everything will be fine tomorrow....a lot of thing has happen in my life this few month...to be in love....to be heart broken....to apolozige.....to feel alone..and many2 thing more.....life is like that..not all the time we are upside..somtimes we will fall...but we learn from that to become more stronger and mature....sometimes as a human,we can make a mistake...it is no use for us to regret about it...but what can we do is to learn from that mistake...and promise to yourself that you will never repeat the same mistake again....everyone of us have our second chance...and take that second chance...appreciate that second chance.....

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nothing much happen in my life this few month..juz busy with my assignment and final exam soon...wish myself a gudluck for my final...semester 3 is the hardest sem in my course...especially subjent OnG...

not everyone is lucky..

after a week my practical here at miri hospital..i have meet a lot of people..

one thing that i cant forget is when i meet penan girl from limbang..admitted to miri hospital because of breech pregnancy...she giving a delivery wonderful cute baby after 3 day admitted..

when i interview this patient,i has asking a lot of question to her..one of my question is..where are u live in limbang....?she answer that she has no permanent house..she still live inside the jungle..very deep inside the jungle...she also say that she need to walk about 7 days to go to the nearest clinic..

people,can you imagine that..7 days juz to go to the nearest clinic..how come this thing can happen in this country..can you people imagine how are you if you need to walk 7 days non stop and sleeping on the naked ground..

today,that patient has discharge..and when i ask her again..how u want to protect your baby in the jungle if raining..she say that..she will use "DAUN POKOK.."

All my readers..can you imagine that..she just use Daun Pokok and yet she not complaint anything..if we..everything we use car and yet we still complaining if raining...but this people..they know how to survive even how difficult are they...when i hear that..my friend give her a umbrella...as a gift..

That patient was discharge from hospital today..maybe now she is in the jungle already...sleeping on the ground..without nice blanket or bed..with mosquito...while now we are so comfortable in our room and surfing internet..on fan..on aircond..no mosquito..and some of us still complaining..

so people..please appreciate whatever u have now..because this people have nothing including education..and they never complaint that their life is difficult...always pray that patient is safe during her journal 7 days in the jungle..GOD BLESS YOU PENAN GIRL...

new life..

i din update my blog for many..many..many day already..it because now i still busy with my practical at miri hosp..which i has attach to labor ward..to all reader who dont know what is labor..labor ward is a place for women to giving delivery...

for the first time in my life,i saw how difficult is women giving delivery...my legs was shaking and i just like i can feel how difficult is that women giving delivery..how painfull it was..
the moment the baby head come out..i know that there is a new life is born on that moment..i can see how amazing is that thing..it just like impossible for the baby to come out..

sometimes we quarrel with our own mother..but have we think how difficult are there to giving delivery on us..how painfull are they at that moment..if u never see it..u will simply just say it not pain..or u will say i can do operation maa if i want to giving delivery...but people..it not easy as what are you think..giving delivery is just like u put ur life in midwife nurse hand....

As a son to one wonderful women..i just like to thank to my mum...for giving me chance to live in this world..thanks alot mum..
to all readers...u must love your mum..bcoz it is not easy to put you in this world..now you can quarrel with them..but one day when we become a parents then we will know how are they feeling...

people..remember to appreciate your mum..and those who are already married..please love your wife..

no tittle..

ermm..today..juz..ermm..arghhh..blank..

the story of human life..

since i has went to my practical last week,i has handle a lot type of patient..to dealing with this people has open my eyes and my heart how fragile is human being..why i say human life is fragile..i has see how very ill patient face they death...its was a very painful death i has see...i has ask myself..how about is that patient is someone that i know,or maybe myself..lying down on the bed and cannot do anything..i need to change that patient pampers..maybe to other people,it is very dirty thing to do..but if you can see that patient face,you will feel pity to them...you want to help them as much as you can and i also dont care who is that patient..maybe they are bad people during they lifetime..maybe they are ah long(shark loan),a murderer,raper or anything else..i dont care about that all because that time they really need my help..As a student nurse,all of this thing has really make me realize that our life is not always on the top..maybe one day we will sick and need help just like them..because i believe all human are not bad..because deep inside they heart there are some kindness hidden inside..

I still remember one of my patient..old ladies..this patient really week and need to feeding by the nurses..when i was feed her,i ask myself,where are your family..?where are your kids..?why are they cannot come here and feed you..i also has inform that,that ladies is from nursing home..i ask..why are she in that home..?she has a kids...why not stay in his kids home..?the answer is very easy..her kids are busy with work..no time to take care of him......Ohhh my god...what happen to the kids that she has raise from a baby to a adult..why this people cannot take care of they own mother...after i finish feed that old ladies...she look really deep into my eyes..i wonder why she look at me like that...suddenly they are tears rolling down on his face...she cry...but why...?maybe she want to say thank you to me and she really mean it...this people when they say thank you..they are really mean it,not like a normal people that use their hypocrite face to say that word...but not all like that..

ceremony for the 2nd and 3rd year student nurses,,

officially year 2 student nurses.


recire the nurses pledge..


waiting...



that was me...in charge for music and video with my laptop..haha..

this is what happen during that ceremony..many more picture,but lazy to upload...haha..

goverment make decision to teach math and science in BM again..

to me this is a stupid decision ever...!!!!!!!!we all know teaching math and science in English is better...and plus all reference about this subject is in English...Why now they want to change it again....stupid decision.,....arghhh.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

still going on....

class just like usual..just now we are busy for the exam next week and practical at miri Hospital...yeahhh...on 18 july,half of us will go to miri for practical for one month...can't wait for it...haha...this few day i have learn much more on obstretic subject..this is important becasue we will attach to gynea ward in miri hospital...this subject is more about female reproductive system and also what is happen to the women during pregnancy...it not a easy subject actually...because a lot of changes happen during that women pregnant....fuhhh...anymore want to write...ohhh...ya...no more for now...so...???habislah...

new semester...

today has ceremony for nurses student to changing our "pangkat"...hahaa...yeahhh..im a year 2 student nurse now...1 1/2 year more to go...sabar2...

money..money....

today i have go to my college registration..need to pay rm500..ohhh...that money just gone like that only...huhu...what to do rite...mahu belajar perlu ada duit rite...now..everything is about money2...no money you are nothing...but because of money we are dying...haha...money..money..money...headache because of it...but if you are very very rich also 1 problem...that problem is...how to spent that money..?..so...i dont know...ahhh.....

Basic life support course..

baby need to give respiration..
listen-listen kids

MY FIRST KISS..HAHA...
listen to the respiration


last week i went to NMSC to attend basic life support course...i have learn how important is time when you saving a life...late 1 second can lead to death..as a paramedic nurse..it is our responsibility to act fast..here are some picture that i have take..the funny thing is,i have give my first kiss to manikin...huarghh...haha..

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after i have learn ecg..i now know more about our cardiac and how to read ecg result...it just like read a music manuscript...but more than half of my classmate fail that paper...including me..it maybe because the thing is confusing...my lecturer was very disappointed to all of us...until he told us that we dont know why we have to take this course..beside that my college is the only college that send their student nurse for ecg course because our college have collaboration with normah hospital....this week im going to basic life support course...also at NMSC..


To be a nurse to me is not about the high salary or whatever benefits...to me,to be a nurse is a big responsibility...very bigggg responsibility....maybe to some to us think that to be a nurse is easy...as a nurse i need to handle a life...what life..?animal..,plant..?..no...we handle with human life...did u get it...?..HUMAN LIFE...that is why that ecg course and basic life support important...you will know how beutiful is saving a life if u have experience it...when you have saving someone life,you will see their family smile...to hear a thank you from the patient and their relative is good enought...and it can make you smile for a decade..:~) i f

update....

yeahh..today is my second day ecg course at NMSC...many new thing i have learn about ecg...about our heart...so tired now..so want to sleep..bye...

1 week holiday is over...

during the wedding dinner..tiger..hahaha...
i dont know how to drink this...




the lake,nice place.

the chapel near to my ahkong house



yeahh...so many thing that i've done on this holiday...firstly i went to my kampung to celebrate gawai...my grandparent house is long house...it was happening but the weather very hot...haha..on the 3rd day gawai i went to my mummy kampung..not to celebrate gawai..just visitibg my ah kong...i never know that at my kampung got nice lake...i also go toi my cousion wedding last saturday..it was fun...i have take the pic above there..:

holidayyyy....

finally i have my holiday..but it just a week holiday because we in this semester have ECG and CPR course next week....yeaaahhh..cant wait that course...any plan on this short holiday...anyone..suggestion plzzz....?

Easter Rally(ER)concert ROCKK...!!!JESUS ROCKKKK.....!!!

yeahhh...last saturday i went to ER Concert at SUPP hall...GOD..!!!i really enjoy it....let me tell a bit about ER..ER is known as easter Rally...Start in year 2004 at St Joseph...This concert is a worship concert....here are some pic that i can take...

ahhh....

still busy with final exam...thanks god i can do it so far..today exam is basic medical science 1...good luck to myself..

FINAL EXAMMM...

exam..exam..exam...and exammmmm.......that all what i want to say...

nurses day...

today is whole world nurses day..but nobody know about it except nurses...nurses day was celebrate since 1971...12 may was choosen because on this day..mother of nurses,florence nightingale who is a founder of modern nursing was born..Florence Nightingle is just like a role model to the nurses..Florence Nighting was born in a rich and upper class family...Inspired by what she took as a christian devine calling, experienced first in 1837 atEmbley Park and later throughout her life, Florence announced her decision to enter nursing in 1845, despite the intense anger and distress of her family.She also known as Lady in Lamp because she always round around the army barrack with a lamp to take care of the sick and injury soldier...Actually,there are lot more thing about this women...if u want to know more,look for it in the internet...By the way,happy nurses day to me..

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how is my day today..?hmmm..just like usual..go to class and play counter-strike with my friend...(oii,final exam is just round the corner,belaja gikkk..)haha...so..?what i should do now..?not in mood to study..kalau paksa-paksa sure tidak masuk...that all what i want to write today..maybe if i have some story later then i write again..

new story(please appreciate someone that is beside you)

This is a story that my friend have told me. This conversation is between a student and a teacher with the topic on - "HOW TO FIND A TRUE LOVE".

One day the student came and met his teacher and ask how to find a true love...the student ask:

student: teacher, how to find a true love? i really need a explanation.
teacher: there is no answer for it.
student: but i really need a explanation
teacher: ok. now walk to the field and find the best grass u can find and bring it to
me with 1 condition-walk straight and do not turn back.
student: ok(went to the field and search for it and came back with empty hand)
teacher: where is your grass? did u find any?
student: i went to the field and walk straight. while i was walking, i found a few but i believe
there is more ahead of me that is better so i continue without my knowledge, i've reach
to the edge of the field without picking up any grass. and i turn to look back, i realize
that there are better grass that i've pass through without picking it up. but, teacher u
have said that i can't walk back to get it so i didn't.
teacher: yes, that is the answer to your question.
student: huh???
teacher: in this life, we have to appreciate someone that is in front of us. if we choose who is will
be in front of us, we will lose what is actually the best for us. remember, if there
someone in front of us, that is the best for you if you know how to appreciate it. we will
lose it if you keep trying to look for a better one of the best that is front of you.






moral value:do not keep trying to look for someone that is better than the people that is already

infront of you..Accept who there are...














ps:please leave some comment after you read it...tq

hohohoh...

a nice place to hangout and relax..

after a week i didn't update my blog...not have much time to write this...concentrate on my final exam and revision..anyway..just to release my stress,my friend and i go to someplace..bistro not pub ok..to release tension..just hang out there and relax..hehehe...not to head banging or drug ok..hahah..say no to drug duhhh...

...unknown title...

a few day I'm not update my blog..that because now i still busy with my final exam assignment..i doing presentation about non-hodgkin lymphoma(hematology disease)..this disease is very hard to understand until i take a few day to understand it..but until now...still don't know anything..grrr...geram....why i'm so unlucky and get this topic..while my other friend get very easy topic such as luekemia..a very common disease...but mine...???who are medical student outside there and know about this disease...please reply me...this assignment is very important because it contribute 10 % to my final exam....final exam just round the corner..good luck to myself...

openn dayy...

last weekend is my college open day..i join fishing competition and paint ball...so nice..you want to try...?cool game duhh..if you never try this memang rugiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.............yee...in blue t shirt is me and white one is my friend...

college open day..

boringggggggggggggg..................................because faculty of nursing still got class...arghh..other course now can enjoy their day..but we need to listen to lecture again...arghhh....

OSCE over...

student..please take your number...



before OSCE we all pray..because we believe in god..


finally osce is over...i feel really free now..but when i look it back,it is a simple procedure that i need to do..the procedure is giving injection and dressing...but i cannot finish my injection procedure in 5 minute...hell..that mean they will minus my mark...cehh...but it oklah..at least i can do my dressing and i have try my best..huhuhu....

.....so many day...

so many day has pass since i confess to someone..confess about what..hehe(adalah)..i know that she has rejected me. .ohhh..but i still cannot forget about her..what is so special about her..?that question only myself can answer...and yeahh..i will try to forget about her..hopefully i can..(i still love her..?..who know..)..I thought that time can heal and make us forget about everything(i mean the bad thing happen to us)but after all i know that time cannot do anything and it just give us time to solve it..(understand ka..?)haahh..this is life..anyway,tomorrow is my OSCE exam..so,gudluck to myself..i know i can do it..peace...see u in the next post..

......karaoke...

another day pass by..just today i sing for my class...aduhhh...maluu duuhh...with all my lecture see me singing..haha...this is how it happen..actually my class organize some karaoke competition between the nurses only..and im one of the ajk...when the time they announce the result,suddenly one of my lecture ask for special request..that is..she ask me to sing...at first i dont want..coz to me i dont know how to sing..but,the whole class shouted my name..and with my shacking knee,i start to sing..amazingly,after a few minute i start to be confident and i can finish that song..hahhaa...that is a few thing happen to me today...after the karaoke session finish,we all start to dance with techno song...hahhaa....amazing day..that is a way how we release our tension before final exam and OSCE next week...

.....bad day..

i don't know what i want to do now..so,i just open my laptop and write this blog..hahha...im still in the class now,but curi-curi online..hehehe...so bad ohh,student like me..what i want to say else ooo...ohhhh....just now i receive my exam result for my pediatric paper...holy damn it...i fail that paper..not just me,but many of my friend oso...what the hell happening to my head duhhh....actually,that question is so fucking damn easy..arghhh....maybe..arghh..no reason why i fail it...

dressing,bandaging,suture take off.....etc

that is a procedure that i have learn today..and it is very important because that procedure will come out as a question on our practical exam..its not a hard procedure actually,just too much step especially bandaging...arghhhh...next tuesday is that examination...so..jaga-jagalah...anyway..good luck for myself..

easter monday..

today is Easter monday for all christian...so happy easter day..we should rejoice because today,our savior,Jesus Christ is risen from death...i feel happy today,because i was reborn..(hopefully)..

busy day again...

finally this day almost finish...today i feel really..really..really stressfull...my assignment almost due date and i havent yet start anything...plus today i need to do daily report and also havent do...so how..?arghhh....i feel like all burden was on my shoulder...i also need to collect all project that have been done by my classmate...i really..really need to release all this thing....but how..?hang out..?but with who..?aiihhh.........i really need something to release all these thing...any idea..?msg me...k...

good friday

tomorrow is good Friday and happy good friday to all christian...what is good friday...good friday is a day when the Jesus Christ die on the cross because of human sin...on this day,all christian will start fasting from morning till evening...if you want to know more about it,you can referr to bible..lazy to explain more..hehe...see you in the next post...

busy..busy life..

life as a student is really busy..busy with assignment,project and etc....many.many more problem also has attack my brain....arghhhhh.......sometime,i feel really tired to face all this thing....but,what to do right...?this is life..life is not as simple as we thought....this is the thing that will teach all of us to be more stronger...even if we pray to have a easy life,all this problem still happen...why..?because god never promise to us that He will make our life easy...God never promise anything to us except life and death....so..face all this thing so that we will be more stronger each day....

class time

today will be another busy day..i just come too early to college this morning and i still sleepy..zzZz..hopefully today will be a great day and i cant wait to learn new thing...life as a student is busy but if you know how to manage it,you will will enjoy it..something that you will remember for the rest of your life..hahhaa...so..enjoy your life...

qing ming,,

another busy day..

hmmm...another busy day has pass by..arghh...cant wait to go back home and rest..not so much thing happen today..just study..study..and study for non stop for the whole day from 8am until 5pm...so tired huhh...but to all of us,it is normal...you see,my friend tired face....huaahahahaha........there are my best friend...hahahaha....sama palak duhhh...hahaha...peace be with you..see you next time....

lovee...

loveee....?what is this meaning..?nothing..?meaningless..?something that can change you..?sometime,a word from someone can make your world turn upside down...is it wrong to admit to someone that you like..maybe it is not wrong because at least we have try..maybe the answer is not like what we expected,but it worth to try...even it will break our heart into pieces...we cannot force someone to love us...sometime,i feel very unlucky to have this feeling to someone...this feeling can make you crazy..if my memory is like computer,i will delete all my memory with someone..because it hurt me,and i know that is not her fault....so..thank you for give me this feeling...thank you to give this first love...we still a best friend ever...sob..sob...


it take a minute to know someone,it take a hour to like someone,it take a day to love someone,but it take a whole life to forget someone...

LIFE...

What we know about our life..is it true that our life is too short..?we maybe die on our 80 years old or maybe younger than that..what we know about death..what i should do when i face the patient that is very ill patient and near to death..?Yesterday,i have learn on how to handle this type of patient..maybe to other people,it is a scary thing to talk.But to nurses or other health allied,it is a normal thing to see,until we get immune with it.Maybe when i say that i get immune with it maybe u people will think that i have a cold heart(no feeling to anything).But the truth is that it is the thing that i need to face everyday,and yaa,sometime i feel sad but im glad because my patient is not suffer anymore.

I just want to say one thing only..that is...appreciate your life,your family,your love one,your friend and all the human being in this world.




read this:

1. Your matter because you are you and your matter until the last moment of your life.we will do all we can,not only to help you to die peacefully,but to live until you die..

by:Cicely Saunder



the lost of a loved one is one of the most intensely pain experience any human being can suffer.

by:John Bowlby.

first bolg.

this is my first blog and this is my first time to blogging here..ermmm...what i want to say oo...ohh yaaa...because of this is my first blog..i hope u people who read this can teach me how to make a better blog next time..thank youu...